The NaSh diaries

so here's my new poem, I seriously had no time to fancy with the font....
Hollow
By NMK 14th nov'08
Every moment has melted away
Every joy seems miles apart
And even though I have much to say
Its all imprisoned inside my heart
I feel hollow and helpless
Lonely and worthless
And though I realize I'm here to stay
My own feelings to myself I betray
I just can't stand here with tears that rolled down
I just can't wait longer for life to frown
At who I was or what I am
I'm not myself anymore
I feel hollow and helpless
Cold and expressionless
To forget pleasure so dear meant to me
To feel those emotions which were so happy
The future I cannot say, even though its mine
Just seems to reveal nightmares with passing time
And even if I want to move on, to fulfill my dreams
I feel shattered and empty
I feel dreary and motionless
My feelings I can't express
I feel solitary and depressed
With all reveries suppressed
Just lost here in stressCuz' I feel hollow and helpless….

I had my social studies exam today, but thats not what I want to write about, Just before the exam started I whispered to my friend, ''we are going to hit the world record on cheating today.''
I am a die-hard fan against cheating, but a lot of girls do it in my class. They don't really mind, I guess, but they also don't realise that they are failing themselves, a girl who sits beside me does it simply all the time. I have a heck of a problem telling her that I won't be telling her the answers during a test, but she only opposes, kind of like becomes crazy over it that I'm s'posed to help her since I'm her friend, but I don't think friends encourage each other to cheat?
I believe that if you don't study, its also not right to take credit from girls who did. A lot of girls just succumb to this pressure because they don't want to see their friends down... but thats not all, even the toppers cheat! Are they even worth being called toppers if they do all that illegal stuff? Nope, not for me.
Its so sad that the only methods most of the students are resorting to nowadays is through totally unfair means, true, they are concerned about their marks, but if they were so concerned at all, why not study in the first place. This has become hardcore reality.